Category Archives: Marriage

Minute with Modo (#13): Do You

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Minute with Modo (#13): Do You

Do You

You want to know when my husband and I fight? When one of us is trying to control the other in some way.

Usually.

Sure we have those typical couple fights: money, waking the baby, what do you want for dinner (why is that always such a hard question).

But when I get down to it most of our fights are about some element of control. But the big question is why?! Why are we trying to control one another and for what purpose?!

Some of the reasons I thought of were: for safety (“babe get off that ladder it’s broken”); for companionship (“I don’t want you to go out tonight”); but the one that made the most sense was for self improvement.

Wait, Modo how do you control someone to improve yourself?!

You can’t! But this is how you fool yourself into thinking you can. Peep the scenario below:

My hubby and I started this meal plan. I bought all the food. Prepped. And printed out the list. The first day while he was at work I cheated. Yep before lunch I at chocolate. The next day he was going to cheat and I went IN on him. Then I realized I wasn’t going off on him I was really going off on myself. I didn’t want to do that damn meal plan in the beginning. Who was I kidding?

I needed to improve my eating habits, so I decided to control my husbands. Sound insane?! It IS!!!!! Lol

I told y’all to pray for me.

Ultimately we have to do US! Focus on you. Make YOU a better YOU! When we both focus more on bettering ourselves and just loving the other person we have the best days. Those are the days we kiss the most, laugh the hardest, and fall in love again.

Anyone else have crazy stories like this? Anyone feel my pain?!

Always with love,

Modo

Love is…

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I’ve had some amazing teachers in my life that have taught me lessons that have carried me through dark times. But, there has been on teacher in particular that has taught me lessons I never thought possible. Babe you have taught me what TRUE LOVE is…not that fairy tale roses and gifts love but that raw, unconditional, agape love. As we prepare to celebrate our five year anniversary tomorrow (and 13 years together) I want to thank you for being such a gentle, kind, and loving teacher…never boastful, harsh, or inconsiderate. Thank you for teaching me love is:

-holding me tighter when I had given up on us…love is…
-never thinking I was less of a woman when the doctors said you can’t have babies, but actually thinking I was more of a woman because of it…love is….
-loving our little miracle baby like a father should love a daughter and getting so excited when she does anything new…love is…
-being a man of God…love is….
-holding my hand through countless and countless doctors appointments and always lightening the mood to calm my nerves…love is…
-getting up before the sun and coming home after the sunset to ensure your family has all that we need…love is…
-loving people in spite of…love is…
-grabbing a sponge and helping me clean up poop, pee, and whatever else our baby girl throws at us that day…love is…
-ALWAYS coming to me at the end of the day and asking “are you ok?”…love is…
-YOU!

I couldn’t have prayed for a better man! Happy anniversary baby and here’s to 50 more!

Minute with Modo (#11): Dying without Passion

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Minute with Modo (#11): Dying without Passion

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Dying without Passion

It was a great family day with my husband and daughter. During dinner a few guys near our table got into a discussion about motorcycles and I could see my husbands smile breaking under his failed attempt to continue to discuss our daughters “cute new thing”. My husband LOVES cars and motorcycles. Seriously this guy is obsessed. When the average person gets a few extra bucks they buy maybe a new pair of shoes, a nice dinner out, maybe even a splurge trip to Target (oh Target!)…but not my husband when he gets a few extra bucks he buys a car!!!! No lie I have heard about and found cheap cars he has stored at locations other than our house (that’s a whole story I’m sure he hopes I keep to myself :-)). But it’s his passion. I looked at him and said ” Gosh I hope I don’t die without a passion”. We further went on to discuss a few things I had some passion about but nothing like his deep gut wrenching love for exhausts. It first made me sad…then it got me determined. Ultimately we concluded to develop a passion you have to commit time for YOURSELF…to explore….something I am quite terrible at: crafting time for myself. So here goes! Time for self exploration.

As we were leaving a slew of motorcycles passed by, my daughter looked up and squealed…looks like someone is following in her daddy’s footsteps.

Always with love,

Modo

Minute with Modo (#6): Live out loud

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Minute with Modo (#6): Live out loud

Live out loud

Sooooooo this happened today:

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Yep! That’s me…on a kid’s ride…screaming my head off. First and foremost I clearly realized today that I need to get in shape…I’ve been working on it but I need to put the light to the fire because kid’s rides are NOT made for adults, BUT adults always have to ride with their kids….and squeezing all this fabulousness into that little seat was for the birds. LOL! But the point of this post is not about my juicy thighs…or even my really cute shoes (go ahead and look), it’s about screaming like a kid. When’s the last time you’ve done it? Gosh it’s freeing!!!! Take some time and just “enjoy life” this week (you know do all those cliche things): laugh like a kid, dance like nobody’s watching, etc….

Life is short…or we should be filling it with so many memories to make it feel like it is.

Always with love,

Modo

Genesis Sixth Month Update: Miss Independent

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Genesis Sixth Month Update: Miss Independent

“From your parents you learn love and laughter and how to put one foot before the other. But when books are opened you discover that you have wings.” -Helen Hayes

Hey there sweet face,

Happy half-birthday little Miss! Your sixth month has been nothing short of amazing. It was full of photo shoots (with your BFF Miles), celebrations, and tons of lunch dates. This month was all about gaining your independence, which made Mommy so proud and sad at the same time. I just can’t believe how fast you are growing. I am officially warning you that I will be a hysterical, crying, mess at just about everything you do: first day of pre-school, first date, graduations, even the first time we get into an argument. As we were driving to church (which you love) last Sunday, I had a vision of you singing in the kids choir and I literally dropped a few tears just thinking about it! However, though Mommy is clearly an emotional wreck already I NEVER want you to stop letting your light shine. Mommy (and Daddy) want you to explore this world through books, travel, and relationships…the best way to learn and grow is TO DO! Just promise me you will call your dear old mom along the way. Check out a few of this month’s events captured in photo:

Lunch with WRW girls

Lunch with WRW girls

Celebrating Auntie Autumn's birthday

Celebrating Auntie Autumn’s birthday

Ready for the  Spring

Ready for the Spring

Another spring time look

Another spring time look

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IPhone 3.20.14 208

Guess who is teething

Guess who is teething

First time in your stroller without the car seat attached

First time in your stroller without the car seat attached

Pedicures with Mommy

Pedicures with Mommy

First time at the park with cousin Ken

First time at the park with cousin Ken

Sitting up all by yourself now!

Sitting up all by yourself now!

You had your first food: avocado!  Sorry I didn't take a picture only a video.

You had your first food: avocado! Sorry I didn’t take a picture only a video.

Other things we noticed this month:
-You are teething! No teeth have come in yet, but you are drooling and chewing on everything.
-You officially waved for the first time on March 15th and are trying really hard to say “hi”! It is the cutest thing ever.
-You are able to scoot while sitting on your butt…have a feeling crawling is not too far away

You love:
-Little kids; anytime you hear or see someone small you light up!
-DADDY! It’s like you fell in love with him all over again this month. When he comes home you squeal and jump for him to pick you up. You are constantly trying to take off his glasses and touch his face. This month was the first time you also reached for Daddy instead of Mommy when you got hurt (broke Mommy’s little heart, but Daddy smiled for days about it). You two are peas in a pod.
-Singing! You love hearing and watching people sing. You also love trying to sing a tune yourself.
-Being outside; when we come in from outdoors you literally burst into tears. Mommy now takes you on a walk every day and you just light up when you look at flowers and hear dogs bark.

You could pass on:
-The food processor. No matter how I try and show you its not scary, you scream every time it comes on.
-Napping on your own. I have now resorted to laying in the bed with you until you fall asleep and literally sliding out of the bed to my butt to try and keep you asleep.

Happy Six Months Baby Girl

Happy Six Months Baby Girl

What did Mr. Frog do to deserve this?

What did Mr. Frog do to deserve this?

Baby on the move

Baby on the move

Always with love,

Mom

Party of Four: Mommy Breakdown!

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Party of Four: Mommy Breakdown!

“Happy is he that is happy in his children” -Thomas Fuller

Baby Notes: Well it finally happened! I had my first Mommy breakdown. At our 38 week checkup my cervix was closed and high. I had high hopes that at our 39 week checkup it would be a dramatic difference since I did almost everything in my power to make this baby come into the world (this is me being dramatic as I really didn’t do much but walk a bit). At my 39 week checkup my doctor said I was still closed and high. I remained stoic throughout the rest of the appointment and shed a few tears of disappointment when I got in the car, but it wasn’t until I heard my mother’s voice on the line when I really just broke down. I cried like my heart just had been broken for the first time. I sobbed. Uncontrollably. After I was able to finally take a breath we talked about my expectations and how I had to release them in order to continue to enjoy the remainder of my pregnancy. This may be the first moment in my life in which I have absolutely no control over when something will occur and a part of me is terrified about that. Control makes me feel secure. Labor is so unpredictable that I have come to accept that I am more afraid of the unknown rather than the pain at this point. However, there is always a silver lining. Genesis will be the beginning of so many unpredictable moments and this labor is preparing me for that journey ahead. I pray that I start to find peace in releasing control and recognizing the freedom and joy in the journey. This little girl has taught me more in these past ten months than I have learned in almost 30 years.

Freedom

Freedom

Week 39 Updates:

Appointments: I am totally nervous because my doctor goes on vacation at the end of next week!!! I do NOT want to have the baby without her. We have established quite a good relationship and she is completely on board with all my wishes. I fear that I will get placed with a doctor that will challenge my natural birth choices, so I have over planned with making tons of copies of my birth plan to hang in my room and gotten copies of all my labs to assist with releasing my placenta.

Maternity Clothes: I hope Genesis comes soon because my maternity clothes are starting to rise up a bit too much! I was in the store the other day and saw a man stare at me. I am use to this as I have a bowling ball hanging from my stomach. But this guy was looking hard. I finally realized my bare belly was hanging out of my shirt! EMBARRASSING!!!!

Contractions: I have been having contractions late at night for a few hours, but they tend to be inconsistent and stop around 3am.

Due date: I have started to come to realize that she may just come past her due date…something I was not prepared to accept, but hey it gives me one more day of Drop Dead Diva!

39 weeks

39 weeks

Baby Updates:

Today the baby is the size of: watermelon

Cravings: Jamba Juice

Next Appointment: Sept 12th

Mochi Update: No Update

Mommy feels: HEAVY! I can totally feel that baby girl is growing this week and I literally have to walk around with my hands under my belly to help with the pain from the extra weight.

Coming next week: 40 week post…or a Welcome New Baby Post (crossing our fingers).

Thank you for joining us on this wonderful journey!

Always with love,
Modo