Author Archives: MoDo

About MoDo

Hi There! I'm a 30 something woman who thought if I did things just right everything would fall into place.... boy was I rudely mistaken. So I thought what better than to share my life journey with the world; reminding people that just because things don't go as planned, doesn't mean they are not going. So here's a toast to our 30's: when things get a little more complicated, your political voice dwindles a tad, and true friends shine through. Here is to all the weddings, break ups, weekend trips, and alumni events. Here's to gaining weight, losing weight, grad school, and student loans. Here's to babies born, jobs we hate, co-workers turned friends, and passport stamps. Here's to not forgetting memories shared, changes to come, remembering who we are, and of course love.

Journey’s 9th & 10th month update: Be free my child

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“I constantly go between wanting you to stay my little baby forever, and being excited about all of the amazing things you’ll do in this life.”

Journey Belle,

Oh I wish I could tell you to slow down, but it would only be out of pure selfishness.  I just want to hold you a little longer like this, but you have plans that I can not stand in the way of.  Within a matter of weeks, you mastered standing, couch surfing, and took your first steps (Sept 12th).  I have never heard your sister cheer so loudly!  Your smile was brighter than the sun as you clumsily walked into your new-found independence.  This just may be Daddy’s favorite phase!  He lights up like a Christmas tree every time he sees you stumble around the room.  This is a harsh reminder that toddlerhood is just around the corner.  Gosh it is so bittersweet, because the dreams of running and playing in the park with you are ones I can not wait for; but this first year with you is one that I cherish so dearly and have an incredible time letting go of.  I thank God I got the chance to stay home full time with you and your sister for the first year and watch every moment.  The sacrifice was great, but the memories and time together are priceless.  Be free my child, Mommy will be ready to catch you if you ever fall and I will also be here to nudge you along the way.

Sissy time

Hanging with Mommy

Your sister loves taking pics of you. This is one of many that she has taken

Beauty

Auntie love

Sissy celebrated her 4th bday!

And you’re off!

Likes:

  • You have finally found your love of food (mostly carbs and fruit)
  • Waving and clapping
  • Playing with your sister
  • Peek-a-boo
  • Music (you even try and snap it is the cutest thing in the world)

Dislikes:

  • Being away from Mommy (stranger danger has settled in month 9…which made it very difficult to get much done this month)
  • Sleeping alone

Month 9

Month 10

Always with love,

Mommy

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Journey’s 7th & 8th month update: Oh the places you have gone!

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We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that (she) he is someone today.

Stacia Tauscher

My precious Pea,

This has been a busy time for our entire family. I feel like we have been in the car more than home these past few months. You have not seem to mind it one bit, which makes Mommy very happy that you enjoy meeting new people and learning your surroundings. When we go to new places you tend to become very quiet and observant. You definitely are a child that likes to take everything in before making a decision. You are cautious, but still brave. It’s so interesting to watch because your sister is probably the pure opposite of that. She tends to jump in, with both feet, into new adventures without giving things a second thought. Both of you have such strong personalities, and I truly believe that you two will care for one another, in very different ways, as you grow up. One of my greatest wishes is that the two of you remain friends throughout your years on this earth, always take care of one another, and respect and value each other’s differences.

Speaking of being on the go, you have started to crawl really well this month! First it was an army crawl, then you would drag one leg, now you are crawling so fast I can not keep up with you.  This has only made your sister happier! Your increased mobility allows for you to play more freely with Sissy and you two love a game of chase.

You two make my heart beat.

Hanging out with your dad is one of your favorite things to do.

You got to meet one of Mommy’s first friends, Sarah and her daughters. We went to a jump house and the park. It was such a beautiful day together.

This was taken at cousin Alex’s birthday party. He had a reptile man and a water slide. Tons of fun!

On father’s day we took a family photo with grandpa and then took him to one of his favorite restaurants.

Father’s Day!

Your first trip to Disneyland to celebrate cousin Zoe’s kindergarten graduation amd Granny’s birthday.  You were so quiet the entire visit and just watched everyone and everything in amazement.

Making friends!

Celebrating with Auntie Alisha at her bridal shower.

Likes

  • Water. You squeal when I let you drink from a cup.
  • Bathtime. You have started to grow very fond of splashing water in the tub.
  • Your sister’s ipad. You love pushing buttons on it while she is watching videos…this obviously is NOT your sister’s favorite thing.
  • The vacuum. Your sister runs and you crawl towards it.

Dislikes:

  • You still are not a big fan of solids just yet. You spit out almost everything I give you except blueberries.
  • Sleeping alone.
  • Fire trucks. You are terrified of them and cry your heart out when one passes by. 

Month 8

Month 7

      Always with love,

      Mommy

      Journey’s 6th Month Update: Happy Half Birthday

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      “Children are not things to be molded, but people to be unfolded”

      -Jess Lair

      Happy half birthday Gummy Bear,

      I know I say this a lot, but I love you so much!  You are such a sweet, sweet baby. Anytime I watch someone with you, they are beaming from ear to ear.  There is something about your spirit that is so gentle, but also dynamic at the same time.   One of the gifts that I believe God bestowed upon me at an early age was the gift of hearing his word.  When I have quiet time with God and you, it is so clear to me that he has placed you on this earth for a very specific reason.  This reason is currently unknown to me, but I can feel it in my gut that you are going to do something very instrumental in your life time; knowing this makes me so honored to have been chosen to be your guide during your childhood, but it also makes me want to protect you like no other!  I write this in your half birthday message because birthdays are often a time of reflection and celebration.  Never question your purpose on this earth, in people’s lives, or in what you decide as your career.  You will ALWAYS be enough.

      You are sitting up like a big girl (with assistance) this month.  Your chair gives you a ton more independence with play.

      One of THE most amazing things that happened this month was how much you and your sister fell in love with each other.  I know sissy has loved you from the day you were born, but to see how much you two love interacting makes my heart smile.  I have the best video of your sister trying to change your diaper.  When you two get older please have me show you this….it is THE best.

      A quick trip to Target with mom

      We had an awesome visit with Auntie Sne Sne.  She brought you the sweetest blue bunny and loved meeting you for the first time.


      Visiting with Miles…you two got along so well.

      Another big moment was trying your first food this month!  It was a family affair (like most things in our family) with Grandma, Auntie Rae Rae, Zoe, Daddy, and Mommy all in attendance.  You tried avocado and really liked it….and then NEVER ate it again ahahhhaha.  You literally HATE food.  I have tried so many things this month and you refuse everything.  In your own time….

      Likes:

      Watching your sister play

      Bath time

      The moment when you see Daddy come in from work

      Dislikes:

      Food

      Sleeping alone

      Always with love,

      Mom

      Genesis’ 6 month update

      Journey’s 4 & 5 month update: Peace in chaos

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      Fat Fat (Daddy’s nickname for you),

      We were making moves these past two months! Though not a fan of your carseat, you have enjoyed the destinations once we have arrived.  There was a sense of peace between the two of us this month. I feel like we got into a groove. I am learning you beyond your needs; I am learning your soul, your smiles, your laughs, your discomforts…and you are learning me. You mimick a ton these days and have tried to start waving. It is pure magic watching you learn us and this new world of yours.

      We had a blast at the LA Zoo! It was perfect weather and we even got to feed the giraffes. You loved the entire day and only cried when it was time to leave.

      We went on a field trip with sissy’s school to the strawberry field. Sissy had a great time.

      We went to Bubblefest at the Discovery Center. At the end there was a windstorm of bubbles. This was NOT your favorite thing…you are definitely a 3 to 4 at a time bubble girl.

      We went to Spring Celebration at sissy’s school. You loved this event and all the moms and dads were so excited to meet you.

      Lastly we celebrated your first Easter with family. Keeping up with you and sister’s schedule had me exhausted, but it was so awesome to get you out more.

      LIKES

      • Your new activity center

      • Watching sister dance
      • Sleeping in the bed with Mommy
      • Music
      • Plastic bags
      • Pooping….you do this alot and laugh after
      • Mommy blowing on your belly
      • Baths

      DISLIKES

      • Your crib
      • Being alone
      • Watching Mommy eat hot food

      All in all its been a busy two months full of adventure. I love that you enjoy being on the go because we plan to keep the two of you quite busy this upcoming summer.

      Month 4

      Month 5

      Always with love,

      Mom

      Genesis 4 month update

      Genesis 5 month update

      The Fourth Trimester: Journey Isabelle

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      The Fourth Trimester: Journey Isabelle

      Journey Bell,

      My little lovebug!  What a blessing of a child you have been these three months.  You were born just a few days before thanksgiving and you are indeed one of the best gifts.  Spending the holidays with a newborn baby reminded me just how important the little things are, like watching you smile for the first time, hearing you coo (especially when Papa talks to you), and capturing the mesmerizing love between you and your sister.   Our holidays are always special but these were something really memorable. 

      Holidays for us also mean spending amazing time with family.  You had quite a few visitors and sleepovers in your first three months including some of your aunties, Granny, and plenty of friends.  While I love the visitors, some of my favorite moments were just spending alone time with you. 

       You are such a sweet child.  Your spirit is so gentle, you rarely fuss, and love to be loved.  You have absolutely beautiful curls, the sweetest face, and your smile lights up a room.  I can not stop kissing your chunky little toes and those cheeks are to die for.

      During the first few months you had a bit of reflux that caused you some grief, but we worked through it with a lot of nursing, pacifiers, and burp cloths.  You also had your first cold and a case of baby acne.  But, through it all you rarely expressed a lot of discomfort and just wanted some extra hugs.

      You have taken a fondness of Mommy snuggling you in bed and can not stand your co-sleeper or crib.  Mommy and Daddy often wake up falling off the bed to make sure you have enough room.  Something else you absolutely love is your sister, Genesis.  You squirm and giggle so much when she is around.  She is very protective over you and makes sure that everyone knows to be “gentle” with you.  She brags about you at school daily.  I pray that you two remain close throughout life, take care of one another, and remember sisters are our built-in best friends.

      Mommy’s recovery has been a little difficult.  When I wasnt feeling too well and had to go to the doctor for a while, your family came down and took the best care of you and sissy.  You took your first bottle with Auntie Rae Rae like a champ (thank God I had pumped). 

      Breastfeeding is going well, you love nursing and have already nearly doubled your birth weight.  You are moving very quickly through your milestones (holding your head up, following objects with your eyes, and respond to your name).  You have done amazing getting through this fourth trimester and I can not wait to continue to watch you grow in the months to come.

       Month 1

      Month 2

      Month 3

      Always with love,

      Mommy

       Genesis 1&2 month update

      Genesis 3 month update

      Why I didn’t blog this pregnancy

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      Today I watched a video that instructed two people to stare at each other in silence for four minutes. There was a lot of giggling initially, then intense pondering, concluded with tears. Every single pairing ended in tears.  The footage reminded me just how much healing there is in silence.  Some have asked why I didn’t write during this pregnancy and at first I contributed it to a lack of time; which has some truth to it. However, the more I contemplated I realized it was because my life was so loud this year and I often become far less creative in noise.
      Just months before conceiving Genesis, my husband and I relocated approximately 1.5 to 2 hours from my immediate family and closest friends. This was the furthest I had ever been from my support network. It wasn’t painful when making this decision as I have always been one to enjoy a tad bit of privacy, but the move really made me appreciate my connections with them more.  I also changed jobs at this time. Though wonderfully compensated, I spent a majority of my day alone (or corresponding via phone with my work partner in crime). After conceiving I was then placed on bedrest for nearly five months. Needless to say, I spent quite a bit of time in silence during my first pregnancy.

      Don’t get me wrong, noise is not a negative thing. I find peace in the boisterous debates on holidays with family. My heart swells listening to my 3 year old’s laughter and I have had some of the best moments of growth over work lunches. Noise is life. But, sometimes, its distracting. Life this pregnancy was far different from before; working full-time, raising a toddler, and being in extreme pain throughout the pregnancy made life quite eventful. I was beyond distracted from being in a creative space.

      As I updated my calendar last night I noted that tomorrow Journey would be one month old. This immediately made me think of Genesis’ first month, which sent me straight here to read her updates. Reading her updates gave me instant nostalgia.  I found myself holding Journey tighter as I read. After bingeing on memories, I was overcome with a huge dose of guilt. I felt like I had cheated my second child out of documenting these moments in real-time. On my way to picking out my outfit for a pity party, I thought..just… start… now.

      Growth!

      I thought no better way to start documenting her journey (pun intended) then giving a little background on why I lost connection with my pen and showing her how I picked it up again. Though life won’t ever be as quiet as it once was (and I don’t I want it to be), I pray to create moments of reflection and stillness for myself; always remembering that masterpieces can be created in chaos too.

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      Journey, there will be times in life when life gets hectic. Times you will feel out of touch with yourself. But, know these are the moments that you were probably doing some immense growing. The most important thing is to reflect on them and find the lesson.

      As I reflect I become grateful. There was a time I would have never thought I would have a child to fall asleep exhausted next to.  Who would have thought 3 years ago, I would even be able to complain about the pain of a SECOND pregnancy.  Now, I have TWO beautiful girls….lets pause on that! I have TWO, beautiful, healthy daughters. Look at God!

      I can not promise I will always get it right, that I will always be centered, or even reflective. But, please know I am truly trying my best for you two. Please know you were prayed for, wanted, and humbly welcomed to our family. It is my heart wrenching desire and prayer that you seek God’s heart first in everything you do, love and value family beyond social distractions, and have an abundance of confidence in yourself because baby girl I believe you will change this world.

      Always with love

      Modo (Mommy)